A seed


well I guess I need to change my whole "aspiring to be an M.D." some day profile because thats not gonna happen. I guess some explanation is in order here.

A long time ago in a galaxy far.. oh wait differet story. (just a little humor) Anyway, A while back God planted this seed in me a mustard seed I guess you could call it ( cause it started out small ) and I have tried to ignore it and ignore it but it will not loosen its grip on me. So I finally could not do it anymore I have given In. What I am talking about here is the direction the God is taking me now. It is really hard to explain but very exiting none the less. I was talking to one of my good friends about this (who often comments on my blog.... starts with a D) any way I just ask him how did you know you where suppose to be in ministry? and he told me a lot of things but the one that stuck out was "I cant imagine doing anything else" I wanted to just scream. I was so excited to here someone say this.. someone else who had this feeling that I was and am experiencing . It was such a relief. As we talked I told him that it was like God said the past 6 years of school (and i know.thats a long while) you where persuing your ambitions and you where tring to fit what I have for you into what you want for you and now its time for you to stop standing ankle deep in the water with me and let my power and direction and my goals take the number 1 seat ( basically jump into the deep end with me) and I fought this urge for a good while. but all the time I was tring to build up my kingdom or castle if you will I was laboring in vain on a foundation of sand. The final decision day for me was the other day. I was praying and it was like a heaviness fell on me and I could not get small enough. It was like all the things that I had thought I had been working toward where gone. I had never really ever experienced humbleness before in this way and it has turely changed me. All the times before that I had been running from what it was he had purposed me to do came to mind and then he brought back to me everything that I had ever ask him for in prayers( and he still reminds me of this ) I ask him for the heart of David and for him to put an unquenchable fire for him in my heart. and I then realized that he had given me everything that I had ever ask for. This is still very new to me this sudden and urgent desire to ministry. I mean I have considered myself for a long time to be a christian, but God has totally taken me out of my confort zone and into his light and I can not ever remember being this excited in my entire life.

This machine.....


A Note to the Reader.
(Well its time for me to show my true colors and where exactly that my passions are. I said that to a friend the other day regaurding this blog entry that i had brewing in my mind. Some of those that read this may not have any interest in the subject matter that I am going to discuss and that is very ok. We all have different interests and we all feel an inclination towards one subject or another. that is truely the beauty behind our design in the body of Christ. we all perform a different function some are called to be pastors others are called to lead in drama ministries while still others are called to be missionaries and so on. So if this is not your cup of tea dont worry,but this is where i feel that God has placed a deep passion in me.)

Well I guess I should start by apologizing for the scare (a note to the reader) the only reason that I did that was because when I usualy get a chance to talk to people about this I get the strange I dont really care look. So the Topic is this machine. And what i mean by that is the human creation. And being more specific the human organism.
The bible says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made and that all we are is basically dust. Lets look at the first part the "fearfully" part. The human organism is an extremely complex system of systems all reacting interdependent on one another, one system fails they all fail. Take for example the circulatory system. This system consists of nothing more (so it would seem) than a series of tubes, some water, some empty cells that have some iron for some purpose and a pump. if this system fails then all systems fail slowly. So here comes the "fearfully" part. upon a closer look this system really consists of (a series of tubes) which turn out to be a series of interconected cells that are all comunicating with each other via a whole host of other chemicals processes, the (water) turns out to be a little more than just water its really water with a whole host of other chemicals that all serve there on individual purpose, some to fight invasion of the body, some to signal those previously stated cells ( making up the tubes) and some small particles that are there to offensively attack intruders. and in this concotion of fluids are blood cells containing intricately woven series of amino acids that form many protiens containing iron (for some reason) and now that pump we were talking about. the power house behind the whole system. A series of specialized cells that all pulsate to the same beat which cause the big heep of them to contract causing the fluid to move. The fearful part is that that is just scratching the surface. I could go into great detail but my fingers would start to hurt from typing.
Now lets look at the "wounderfully" made part.
Here we have this Human organism a Conscious and deliberate creation. A series of systems built on other systems that work togather to keep itself running, that is simply nothing more than dust. Thats the "wounderfully made" part. the part that says that we are dust. This design this creation known as man and all its fantastic inovations that allow it to function are designed.
Now some would argue that initially man was perfect and that these systems that we speak of did not exsist and where not necessary. I would say to those people what ever you are comfortable with. but if that were true then we sould be even more amazed at this designed machine because if we are fallen creatures and we were designed perfectly initially then when the fall occured the design be grace still exsists, just altered by sin. dont misunderstand me sin is bad, but God and his wisdom makes all things work to accomplish his purpose. So "thismachine"as I so lovingly titled this entry, is fearfully and truely wounderfully made, there is no other thing that has been created that harbors such a wealth of complexity that is utterly and simply beautiful.